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Sarah Harding opens up about alcohol issues that led to rehab: 'I drank to numb myself'

Girls Aloud's Sarah Harding has given an exclusive interview to Hello! magazine about her stint in rehab and her battle with alcoholism. 

The platinum-haired singer opened up about how she relied on booze to "numb" herself and admitted that she felt "ashamed" over the habits she began to develop that led to her spend time in a treatment centre:

"The day I left for rehab, I was in such a mess. I've been told by those close to me that was when I hit my worst. I was crying hysterically. I felt ashamed, embarrassed, terrified - my emotions were all over the place."

"I wasn't in a good state at all. I was very hungover, but the first thing I wanted to do was open a bottle of wine. I know they were really worried about me."

"I was so down but I just tried to keep busy and, to numb myself, I was drinking more. It was my way of escaping. One minute I was deliriously happy, to the point of hysteria, and totally in denial about my problems saying, 'I'm fine, I'm fine.' The next it hit me - and when it did, it hit me hard."

 

 

 

Speaking about the breakdown of her relationship to former fiance Tom Crane, Harding added:

"Our lives had started to go in different directions without us even realising and we'd become like passing ships. He had his career, I had mine, and somehow they didn't seem to marry up. As far as our future plans were concerned, I didn't see how it would work."

''I was so down but I just tried to keep busy and, to numb myself, I was drinking more. It was my way of escaping.''

The full interview can be read in the new issue of Hello! magazine, which is out now, and you can watch an interview with her from earlier this year below: